Erica's blog

weektennn

is supposed to be a super duber fun and exciting one but it turned out to be the opposite :/ ALL BECAUSE OF MY FLU/HEADACHEE ):

 

TUE

woke up with a super bad headache and running nose again from the previous night :/ but it was a good day coz it's 20TH MAY when the new president MA took overr (:

 

felt rly bad not taking PE though i dont like touch rug. :/ practically spent my whole day zombieeing around with stupid running nose and headache. expected to be sick long time ago since i'd had migraines for many days BUT IT CAME AT THE WRONG TIME ): smsed Ms U regarding may not be able to go class camp ):

 

WED

felt worse and spent abt half an hour to decide if i will be able to do GP CT :/ really couldnt take the headache/runningnose/sorethroat and smsed/called to inform MsU/the sch >< went back to sleep and went to see the doctor which i seriously hate to coz i hate medicine (but i may want to take medicine in the future so ironic! D:) and i swear it was the WORST i've taken coz ALL of them cause drowsiness and i spent my whole day sleeping or in a semi  conscious state without knowing what's going on >< and the best thing is i only have 1 day's MC to be excused from sch and 6 days from PE so i cant go class camp but need to drag myself to school the next dayy :/

 

THU

was feeling bettter amazingly must be the whole day of sleep :D decided to stick with the class for rope course till the time for match support! (: was acting as a photographerr and it made me happy coz i havent been taking good photos ever since last year and i didnt join back photog :/ but after tt i seriously couldnt resist the temptation of the rope course and borrowed track pants from yile to climb :P it was FUN though tiring and i climbed with cheryl (: but my headache came againn after the climb and maybe it's coz of the sun ><

had lunch with the class and went for bball match support! XD this is probably the ONLY good thing from missing class camp coz i can go for match support (: though ppl scolded me/said i was crazy to go match support when i was sick but wadeverrr supporting my bball friends are more impt (: (esp. yen (:D), joe, nata, olly, claire) was holding on to yen's jersey number (had been looking for it since arrival at the sports hall and finally found it with latha (:) and all the bballers were AMAZING (: you are forever our champions! <3

ogayyr and realized tt match supports DOES kill ppl esp. someone who's sick and i could hardly talk/walk so didnt go for the hockey match with the rest of the 28ths (luckily i informed cherylteo) and waited to talk to/hug bballers. stayed with yen for a while before going home. 

 

FRI

probably the worse day everr for the week. coz i realized GP CT retest wont be counted ): had to time myself and do it in the library. and almost lost my wallet and found out that all my money got stolen during break and sighh totally felt sad and got reminded of my stolen wallet the previous time esp. there was a letter from yen inside it. during paper 2 i totally felt weak and tt's when i realized tt my skin was still weird after so many days D: couldnt understand/ do bio tutorial and did badly for photosynthesis quiz also coz of headache again :/ did 2 random but impt things before going home.

numbb.

i wish i am numb and i wish i am not numb! ><

 

smth's seriously wrong with me esp. physically! D:

 

my nerves arent working well i think :/

 

lots of updates and clearing of thoughts. shall do it tmrw since today will be another council day.

sickk.

finally after a long long time.

expected to fall sick anyway since wed night after getting headache from being stuck in the cold cold LT for 6 hours for internal elections D:

 

well this shows that your mental well being DOES affect your health :/

 

thank you dear quekxiner rice&noodles for sitting with me ytd and hahaa seeing some friends from your class (like rachel,bryan and charleen LOL) play wii did help cheering me up abit :D

and lots of thanks many many friends like bio lab, joe, jacky, nette, dongdong,anna and sianghuat who stood by me for the past few weeks ever since my entry into ___ and talked to me N times to make me feel better (:

and really sorry for classmates and people around me for the decrease in amount of laughter (and jokes XD) from my side especially for the past 2 weeks or so :/ my fault to make you all worried and affected ><

 

yep i will be fine soon i think. and i shall be patient and keep on waiting.

perhaps it's just my fate that i wont get whatever i want and sacrifices need to be made at different points of my life.

 

i will promise to be accepting and make the best out of it when the results are out.

and try my best to fight for the thing that i have lots of passion for at the same time.

the chances for winning is less that 50% but i will do my best nonetheless.

for the sake of RJ Girl Soccer (:

 

anywayy i miss PSB alott >< but yep i guess i found the motivation for __ and to stay strong from psb when i went back for gm to  (: 

really like my new layout! HH FTW :D

perhaps

cried.

for something i've never been officially in.

 

really felt quite stupid and ridiculous but i guess that affirmed me of how much love i have for it. and how the thought of not being able to stay (or rather JOIN) really saddens me. :/

anyway, heard from many friends that the scores of today's match was 9-0! :D i would say it's really fantastic! well done everyone! (:

 

i really need this KICK in my life but i seriously doubt i can ):

 

sigh perhaps it's impossible to live up to the title of this blog because i am starting to doubt my choice again.

 

now in the process of evaluating if i really fit to be in council. perhaps i wasn't meant to be here afterall. ><

 

 

no zero velocity part I

BYE.

 

Ok this is the most absurb post i have ever written. I know this is the first post which is supposed to start with HELLO.

But "bye" suits this post and this new blog more I guess.

 

Bye to old blog.

Bye to old memories.

Bye to old self.

 

Anyway I have no idea why i am starting this blog. I know i have xanga,lj, wretch already :/ but i guess human beings are naturally territorial and we always would like to "invade" other territories and zones and we need a change of the environment when we need want to start anew.

I guess I have finally moved on and stepped out of the guilt that i have been having for the past 7 months or so. And it looks like that person isn't angry or disappointed with me afterall. Perhaps it's just my illusion?

Ok whateverr.

Sigh but nowadays still abit ): coz

options' ending = Chi Os are coming = school days are ending = JC's coming ><

 

I am more sad because alot people not moving on to rj ):

Some going HC, some going IB, some applied for UWC (and didn't tell me ): ) or IS in UWC while others considering other JCs.

Oh wells.